Girls Rock: Kathleen Hanna & The Willie Mae Rock Camp for Girls

As some of you may or may not know, I am currently on the Advisory Board of the Willie Mae Rock Camp for Girls and an alumni of their inaugural Ladies Rock Camp. I don't think I could ever express how amazing I think this camp is and the awesome experiences that come out of Rock Camp.

Check out Kathleen Hanna and rock camp volunteers talking about the camp on Current TV.

Also, mark you calendars for the premier of the film documenting the Portland Rock Camp for Girls, Girls Rock! The Movie. It comes out March 7th and the Willie Mae Rock Camp for Girls will be holding a Mini-Rock camp in honor of the movie.

CMJ Weekend: Bloodshot Records, The Lawrence Arms, and Diatribe on Punk Rock Community

I started out my CMJ weekend by heading to the Bloodshot Records BBQ at Union Pool - Free Beer! Free Food! (after the $10 cover). We arrived late because that's how I roll and guess what? No food and the beer might have been free but it also might have been dog piss. They only charged us $10 for 2 people though.

We got there just in time to see Centro-Matic. I generally like Bloodshot Records' bands and love the Old 97s. For years I've been hearing the praise of Centro-Matic as the new Old 97s but never really gave them a good listen. Now that I have, all I can say is that their music is good alt-country but nothing special. As for their live show ... well the guitarist looked like he was about to fall asleep and I was right there with him.

In one word: Dissapointing. And the Bloodshot merch stunk which was doubly dissapointing since I'm currently on a big band shirt kick.

After that we head up to Greenpoint to see The Lawrence Arms. Since we had no interest in the opening bands and since our tummies were growling due to lack of free BBQ, we decided to get some food. Prior to this decision we walked aimlessly in the wrong direction for 2 blocks. Whoops. Once correctly situated, we decided to sit down at this small polish joint mostly because it was the first decent looking restaurant we came across. The food was quite delicious and our waitress was adorable.

Because Adam and I are huge dorks, we often play "top 5" or "if you could" games. Tonight's was "What is the one current band you haven't seen that you really want to see?" Both of our answers was: The Lawrence Arms. At the time, we didn't know how dissapointed we'd come to be.

After finishing our food, we headed over to the venue. Perhaps it's because I'm from Chicago where the Lawrence Arms sell out the Metro, but I was pretty surprised by how few people were there. I later came to be surprised at how big of an asshole those few people could be.

Finally, the band came on. They were wasted and slurring which made it tough to understand their banter which, according to them, was hilarious. Only the drummer - who was rocking out and singing along behind his kit - seemed into the show at all. Apparently, they were playing the same set that they played the previous evening on the Rocks Off Boat Cruise. One word: Lame. Don't worry though, it gets lamer.

About midway through the show a 200 pound (I'm not exaggerating he later told us how much he weighed) meat head decided it'd be "fun" to stage dive into the sparse crowd. First of all, stage diving is pretty much never ok; let alone stage diving by a two hundred pounder. I didn't come to a show to play basketball with this asshole. Moreover, the only case when crowd surfing itself is ok is 1) if the crowd is packed and 2) if you way less than 120 lbs. Niether of which was the case this evening.

Eventually a most pit forms behind us (we were almost at the stage) which is fine. Unfortunetly, Meat Head decides that instead of moshing in the pit like any community-respecting punk properly trained in punk rock etiquette, he starts jumping on top of the people standing up front. Adam and I are getting more and more pissed off. I'm elbowing people left and right (and so is everyone in the pit - always a sign that things are not as they should be) and Adam is pulling crowd surfers down. At one point (or two or three), I shoved Meat Head.

Meat Head then decides to start shit with me. The song ends and he says "Does it really bother you that much?" blah blah blah. I respond, "If you're going to mosh, get in the pit." Then Adam gets into it with him. According to Meat Head, he was just having fun so it should all be ok. As Adam told him, "It's fun for you." Meat Head then pulls the 'punk rock community' card with Adam. Adam's response: "Just because we like the same band doesn't make us a fucking community." Moreover, doing something that is fun for you but not fun and potentially dangerous to the rest of the crowd, aka the 'community,' is really the antithesis of community, is it not?

While all this is going on, Meat Head's shrimpy friends decides he's going to get some cool, macho points by going after Meat Head's leftovers. That's right, he starts shit with me. Things were said back in forth or more accurately, I called him out on his lame, insecure bullshit and he responded (everytime) by asking me "Why are you even here? At a punk rock show?"

At this point there are only a few songs left (Like a Record Player and 100 Resolutions - two of my favs). Adam pulls all crowd surfers down and takes a clearing round around the pit and my elbows get more than a little contact. We sing along and try hard to rock out and enjoy the last few minutes of the show. Truthfully, the show was pretty much ruined for me and I was livid ... at those guys, at the injustice and irrationality of the underlying assumptions of the things that were said and done, at the Lawrence Arms for making no effort to regulate their crowd, and at myself for being so upset by it.

Note: Adam and I were engaged in the same behavior - pulling crowd surfers down, shoving/elbowing/generally making unwelcome all the assholes making the show less welcome for others, yet Adam gets asks about his allegiance to a punk rock community while I get told that - because I don't want to have a 200 lb asshole jump on top of me - I don't have a right to be at a punk rock show. It is assumed that Adam is defacto a part of this so called punk rock community despite his actions while it is assumed that I am not and surely can't be if because of those same actions.

Punk Rock community is an interesting thing for me to think about. On some level I find the idea/ideal very attractive and it probably contributed to my general attraction to punk rock music and the punk rock scene. But the truth is that I have never felt like a part of that community. I've been going to shows by myself or tagging along with people I didn't know that well or forcing friends that weren't really into it to go withe me since I was 14. In case your wondering, standing in a crowded venue loud with the sound of voices and crowds of friends by yourself, isn't fun and it doesn't make you feel like a part of a community - it makes you feel alienated. I kept going because once the band started, it was awesome. I guess in those moments of singing along and dancing in the pit I felt like I was apart of something. But it ended there. Maybe that's what kept me believing in the ideal of a punk rock community. But believing isn't feeling.

i like people who wreck. homes.

this may come as a shock to many (or not) but i like michelle branch. and vanessa carlton. they write catchy pop music. let me say that again: they write catchy pop music.

the state of women in music today is dire. DIRE. and i feel that michelle branch and vanessa carlton get unfairly lumped into the britney and avril camp. they are both musicians and artists as opposed to marketing ploys. and because they write the words they sing, they are a voice in music today that is rarely heard: the voice of young girls growing up.

in vanessa carlton's song "white houses," she sings about losing her virginity. from the joy of new, bestest friends to crush and obsession with insignificant details ("he's so funny in his bright red shirt") to the disappointment of the aftermath; the disappointment of growing up. i've seen one tree hill and buffy and everwood and the other shows that imply and show but never say, not really. i mean have you ever heard something this honest on tv or in popular movies or music?

my first time, hard to explain
rush of blood, oh, and a little bit of pain
on a cloudy day, it's more common than you think
he's my first mistake

now we have all gossiped about britney and christina and mandy's virginity from the time they claimed it to the rumors of when they lost it. they were coy and vague. and they sure as hell never came out and said that it had happened, let alone mentioned blood or pain. but there are millions of girls out there going through that experience without any representation in popular culture. and the point of music (or one of them) is to make you feel like what your going through makes sense.

i also have a thing for liberal pop country - you know, the dixie chicks and now, michelle branch's new collaboration the wreckers (purportedly a shortening of 'the cass county home wreckers' which is what michelle's husband nicknamed her and her friend and collaborator jessica harp). i like about a third of the album a lot ... which is pretty impressive for me frankly. oddly enough i created a playlist that consisted of my favorite songs of bad religion's new album 'new maps of hell' (new dark ages, requiem for dissent, honest goodbye, dearly beloved, grains of wrath, scrutiny, and prodigal son) and favorite songs off the wrecker's album 'leave the pieces' (leave the pieces, tennesse, stand still look pretty, cigarettes). of these songs on my playlist, i think michelle and/or jessica wrote all but one and i think that plays into my enjoyment of the songs. we're around the same age, they are into tattoos (michelle has got a pretty hot pin up tattoo on her forearm these days) ... it's a match made in great theory. the point is that i like these songs because a) i like catchy songs that aren't contrived b) i like pop country and the real clincher c) the lyrics say something that i think i would say; i could say those things and mean them (unlike, say, 'hit me baby one more time.') but even beyond that there lyrics are honest and it's a kind of honesty that we rarely hear from female artists today:

see i left another
good man tonight
i wonder if he'll miss me
lord knows i tried

but i think maybe
the thing that i did wrong
was put up with his bullshit
for far too long

i think i might like
the quiet nights
of this empty life ...
from cigarettes

compare that to 'You're so fine/I want you to be mine/You're so delicious/I think about you all the time' (avril lavigne's newest hit 'girlfriend').

even better, though, is that michelle is honest about herself and her life and not in a 'feel bad for me i make millions of dollars kind of way':

i am slowly falling apart
i wish you'd take a walk in my shoes for a start
you might think it's easy being me
you just stand still, look pretty
from stand still, look pretty

now why does it matter if women's voices are represented in pop culture? or anywhere for that matter?

i've been asked this question many times, especially in the context of workplace diversity. i always tell the same story:

in the beginning days of heart bypass surgery there was an inordinate number of women who died from the procedure. the doctor's couldn't figure out what was causing this. women's immune system? their period? what? it turns out it was because woman are, on average, physically smaller than men and the tools used were too big and popping their arteries. Here's the thing: had women been included in the study (the fda didn't require women to be a part of studies until the last 5 or so years), then these women might not have died. there are other factors of course but this seems pretty basic to me.

of course, music isn't quite as dire as say, heart surgery. but for some, it can be pretty important, especially during adolescence. moreover, if we're not telling women's stories in popular culture, it's not just women who lose out. men do too. many of us learn to relate to each other (sadly) through tv, music, movies and without an honest, true female voice we tend to operate on different wavelengths (venus and mars, for example). but i don't believe that's inherent; i believe it's because we each have false preconceived notions about the behavior, motivation, and feelings of the other gender and thus, we operate under false assumptions and get angry and confused when these assumptions - which we hold to be truths - don't turn out how we planned.

but you don't have to like michelle branch or vanessa carlton to support women in music (although, try to search out female artists that play the type of music you like, maybe you'd be surprised?). you can support rock camp for girls!

i personally am on the advisory board for the new york city willie mae rock camp for girls! hooray!